Louise’s story
A few years ago I found and understood the real message of God’s love for me to share.
Bill and I had been married for 35 years and we were having the time of our lives. Kids all grown up and on their own. Life was good. We travelled, went to special events, birthdays, weddings, Christmas with grandkids, family and friends. Couldn’t ask for a better life.
Coming home from the states, Bill was not himself and wanted me to go straight to the hospital. The doctors ran some tests. A few weeks later we found out that it was cancer.
During our married life we had our ups and downs, but we worked at it and we believed and always turn to God for help. God does not always answer prayers your way. He has a plan.
I was confused with the mixed emotions I was scared, shocked, sad and even mad at God. But why? I said: Bill was finally giving me all that love and attention the love that I needed.
Cancer change both of our lives I didn’t know how I was going to have a life without him. Bill always did everything and always took care of me. I was so worried, so shy and awkward, I never did anything on my own. He was always the one to take care of the things and take charge.
This time Bill was weak. I was on my own and had to take charge. But you were always there with me.
He was sent to St. Michael’s Hospital. I was scared but also proud of myself for having been able to accomplish what I had to do.
One might as I was saying thank you for the care bill was getting. I realized it was God’s love through me that really mattered. I didn’t see it at the time but today I understand and see it.
Bill was so thankful and wouldn’t stop saying how sorry he was for what I had to do and how much he appreciated the love and care I was given him. I knew then dear Jesus that we had become one with you, through you and in you. We finally understood the love, your love.
During Lent back in 2015 we started to pray together as a couple and we never stopped.
With lots of prayers, support from family and friends and people we didn’t even know. Bill was on his way to recovery. He was changing but he couldn’t thank me enough for all the care that I was giving him I did everything for Bill because I’d loved him and wanted to. Bill would see: what am I putting you through I am so sorry. I don’t deserve you. I don’t know how I would ever have gone through this without you. I love you so much. I heard your voice and seeing with your eyes how much I was loved. Dear God, I was there with you by my side every moment of his deeds needs. Bill was healing in many ways coming back to church and having a personal relationship with Christ. Two years later Bill had a heart attack and you dear God wanted to show me how to stand on my own and take my fears away.
A few months later in the summer the cancer was back, and he became sick and not done fighting but accepting it. There was nothing more the doctors could do.
But why I said to God you were fixing him. But God had more for us to learn. He showed me what a good man Bill was of all he did for me. A good father, and, a good husband and a friend. He showed us how to play, how to have faith, to give, and to receive, to have straight to let go and to trust in God for all that he sends our way.
I was, and I am still very grateful to God for showing me how to care for Bill to the very end. I was chosen to be part of Bill’s journey here on earth. He was God’s plan for me and I was blessed with our kids, grand children, family, friends, doctors, nurses and our church praying, love and support and belief believe me I felt it in many ways and God never left my side.
Our home became a place of peace, love, support, prayers and lots of good memories were being shared. Bill was ready and not afraid. I’ve learned to love him and set him free. This is what I’ve learned through the journey. That nothing or anyone belongs to us. We are God’s children.
You dear God had my back. With the help of your angels, you sent everyone our way. From travelling arrangements to hotel, hospital and the care of many good doctors for two different surgeries.
It is a gift to me to wake up every day and to share the love that comes from God so we can love one another.
Love is special.
Love is giving your love to someone who cannot give it back. You will be rewarded.
Love is doing something and helping someone without ever asking or expecting something in return. It will come back to you.
Love is offering your pain and offering suffering for someone sealing.
Love is pure, kind, beautiful, caring, sharing, dancing, singing, and forgiving. Love is free.
Love is all around.
Love is God. Share the love and I love you God bless you.